Letter 2 god

Dear god I know I go day by day acting like I don't care & instead of your words it's a dutch or a bottle I perfer to share as if I'm seeking death when it's life me you gave listening to my gospels, reciting scriptures all while I still misbehave going against how me you raise tho i give you praise I'm indulged in my sin loving my sinful nature but to forfeit my soul naw I can't aford that wager so many a tears do I shed I shed not at death but at life I'm fed, I'm fed for in that deep sleep it's honesty, love & innocence of purity that I keep vs taking in another 7 deadly breathe as this wandering sheep that hynotized by the sirens of the world turning up with pills & potions carved out rap/HipHop emotions Oh Jehovah please help me father catch me from this free fall so I can be a surivor and boast in your name I will, I will as your enternal pressence sends the chills