Genesis

rebirth
recede
my old words still mean so much to me
but its time I get what I deserve
now it's I who needs the amity

a dash of macabre
a pinch of pissed off
a scream
a sob
a quick fuck in the loft

a little too short in temper and stature
wishing I were taller
just trying to matter

much too shy
too easily flattered
so confident sometimes
but mostly so shattered

Just using the same words to say the same things
trying again and again
hoping someday  they will have a new ring

Wanting to write better
taking the wrong path
wrinkling my nose
as I fill up the glass

chaotic in every way
from genesis to method
if it bothers you how I do things
bitch just get to steppin'

because I'm so full of love
but these words can be weapons
“I'm just doing my best”
is my life in one sentence

and don't mistake my duality as weakness or curse
because how  I thrive the best is in salted earth
there is no difference between my best and my worst
The flowers are blooming bitches
I'm back with a vengeance
here to stay with a thirst