Lost within

I may always dress in black but doesn’t mean my heart is,
My soul is covered in blood, I’m bleeding from within,
I’m living in the forgotten abyss where no one can hear or see me,
Each painful hour; each dreadful day I’m slowly disintegrating,  
I cry in silent behind my secret door,
My tears I hide and my pain I do not show,
You could see the loneliness through my prison eyes,
You could hear my soul crying inside,
To “sigh” is the only way for me to breath,
My heart is slowly stopping and my body is going weak,
I’m lost within myself and where I am I do not know,
I’m cramp in my corner, cold and alone,
Just to find peace I have to close my eyes,
Every time I do that I get peace of mind,
I’m waiting for my freedom; the silence is my only fate,
To darkness I am bound; Death is my only escape,
To be alive is the punishment you get from life,
It’s the simple way for you to suffer as you slowly, slowly die,  
But before I go, I’ll make sure to leave no trace of me,
To make it seem like I never existed, a misleading impression of reality,
Burn everything about me, even my own flesh,
Let the vicious wind blow the ashes far, far away,
There will be no grave site only memories that are left,
Which time will slowly wither away,
Leave everything in the yesterday deep in to the shadows,
So nothing can come back for tomorrow,
You see only in darkness I find happiness, it fills the empty space in me,
In daylight, melancholy and fear is all I see,
I’m just tired of crying and the agony I feel inside,
I’m ready to start a new life and leave this one behind,