tired of being tired.

I went to hell and back      
Found myself way off track    
And half the cast couldnt last but I cant talk about that..  
So i laugh as i look back at it  
i guess im not mad i found these bad habits,    
Cuz no matter how tragic as this act ends,    
Im glad it happened      
Cuz happiness is nothing without sadness,  
But what do i know?  
How could I hope to change the whole show  
If i am not  even in touch with my own soul?
So i hope before i grow old    
i gain some control,    
I have paid many tolls,    
To play this role,  
i hope one day it may pay in full.


...More to come!
Can you relate?
Critiques and comments are greatly appreciated and will be taken into account as i continue writing.