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Tyrant
The shell shock of your tyranny
plays violent dischord on my nerves
sings arias of madness in my head
My heart is in a bunker well out of range
and even though your guns are silenced
I'm hiding from another volley (just in case)
You were not ousted nor deposed
but weakened from within; an emasculation
of your willful rage, a slow departure of
your hateful mind
No peace, no truce, was ever called
(but then, no war was either)
no way of knowing when it began
no way to know when this disease* will end
There are no songs of peace.
(the disease I am referring to is not simple; it is a complex mix of anger, distrust and the physical and mental limitations of MS)
Published 30th Dec 2015
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30th Dec 2015 8:50am
30th Dec 2015 10:49am
Thank you. You are exactly where I was coming from... for the the longest time I thought I was going through some kind of PTSD (before the clinical diagnosis of MS).
30th Dec 2015 8:53am
I've never known anyone with MS but I did lose my father to Dementia which was unpredictable personality wise from one day to the next.
This piece sheds a little light on MS to those unaware. Great lines in the second stanza. Tragic but nonetheless, wonderful writing.
This piece sheds a little light on MS to those unaware. Great lines in the second stanza. Tragic but nonetheless, wonderful writing.
30th Dec 2015 11:17am
Thank you so much. Just seen what I wrote in a different light entirely... parts could be addressing MS. I suppose there are two tyrants.
I didn't lose my mother to dementia... she was lost to me already. The day they bundled her off I stopped smoking (didn't even need to try) and I haven't seen her since. That was six years ago.
MS is uncommon. Worldwide the prevalence is one in 10,000 but here in NZ it rises to one in 4000. The official line is that lack of sunlight hours is the reason. I have my own ideas about the reason, but that's another story ;)
I didn't lose my mother to dementia... she was lost to me already. The day they bundled her off I stopped smoking (didn't even need to try) and I haven't seen her since. That was six years ago.
MS is uncommon. Worldwide the prevalence is one in 10,000 but here in NZ it rises to one in 4000. The official line is that lack of sunlight hours is the reason. I have my own ideas about the reason, but that's another story ;)
30th Dec 2015 3:04pm
Two of my friends and a former employer suffer/ed from MS.
This is very well written and encapsulates a sentiment that they
have expressed to me. One is a writer so I'll show this to them.
This is very well written and encapsulates a sentiment that they
have expressed to me. One is a writer so I'll show this to them.
10th Jan 2016 3:31pm
By the time I discovered 'updates' it didn't show your comment, so apologies for my late response. It has helped though to not see the write for a time and to now look at it with fresh eyes.
The 'you' I am addressing here is my mother; the emasculation her slow descent into dementia. Oddly enough I didn't see the dementia arrive until it was manifestly clear a change had taken place (meat in the fridge that was months and not just weeks old), mainly because her behaviour had always been odd (to put it mildly). Reading the write again now I can see that the 'you' addressed could very easily be the MS itself. Perhaps a retitle?
The 'you' I am addressing here is my mother; the emasculation her slow descent into dementia. Oddly enough I didn't see the dementia arrive until it was manifestly clear a change had taken place (meat in the fridge that was months and not just weeks old), mainly because her behaviour had always been odd (to put it mildly). Reading the write again now I can see that the 'you' addressed could very easily be the MS itself. Perhaps a retitle?
30th Dec 2015 8:57pm
A hurting disease to not only the person but friends, family, loved ones. Heartfelt read! TY! :)
10th Jan 2016 3:41pm
I missed your comment earlier (as above). It is frustrating because of the physical limitations. Luckily there is little pain (mostly numbness), and I do have a good side that is largely unaffected. On bad days i'm tending towards hemiplegia. Still, there are good days. Thank you for your commment.
10th Jan 2016 10:11am
Initially it reads like the thoughts of one trying to keep their dignity in the face of an abusive relationship, not cottoning on it was about the frustrations of living with a chronic disease until I saw your footnote.
I have known a few people who have died of MS as well as of MND.
I have known a few people who have died of MS as well as of MND.
10th Jan 2016 3:57pm
You are spot on about the abusive relationship, and that is how I wrote it; it can be seen another way too. Maybe I should retitle it A Tale of Two Tyrants...
Haven't known anyone who died of MS, but as a child did know a neighbour who died of Motor Neurone Disease. I was protected from the gruesome details at the time though I've since learned it is a very nasty thing.
Haven't known anyone who died of MS, but as a child did know a neighbour who died of Motor Neurone Disease. I was protected from the gruesome details at the time though I've since learned it is a very nasty thing.
