lab rat

seen my psychologist today
he don't say much , just writes shit down
sometimes he smiles at what I say
sometimes he frowns
never quite know whats going down

I tell him I am not mad
he just gives me one of his looks
jots it down in his little book
I wonder does he think I am a tad
psychotic ? the prick

they have me on 140 pills a week
I am comatosed I don't sleep
I fade into a deep death
cant function like I should
was gonna ask if he would
lower the deadly dose
so I can at least piss close to the toilet
without getting wet,
feel like a fucking invalid
vagina wont even wee straight
shoots off in all directions
I am always to late

medication is supposed to be the answer
but its not !
I feel like a gunia pig that has been left to rot
poked and proded by men in white coats
I have tubes stuck up every orifis as they stand and gloat
open up,  here is more pills to shove down my throat
fucked if I know