Empty

What is empty?  
Is it a slit in the wall of your heart and mind  
that was never nurtured  
or no one took the time  
To look close enough  
and watch for a while  
If they did then they'll see  
breaks in the dust particles  
that float around  
to tickle the abyss
Just to remind you it still exists.  
But the more the tickle begins to itch  
the more it grows in length and width  
and it hurts.  
it cripples part of you that once was whole  
and you thought you had that part  
under control  
but lately it seems this bothersome  
gap  
is growing a lot faster  
than you can keep tracked  
and filling it is become an  
exhausting and hopeless task.  
You find yourself dazed  
and the world a little more blurry  
not because you need a new  
prescription  
but because the effort of looking  
for something or someone to fill in  
this oblivion  
is getting more trivial  
But you keep walking on numb feet  
as the empty seeps into your view of things  
and when you’re not busy or distracted  
all you can do is lay there and think  
what life could be  
if I wasn’t so empty.  
Recently a blank mind  
has desensitized the rest of me  
and then sometimes I over think  
because I should be satisfied  
and I should be content  
but looking back  
will I see my life well spent?  
and if not,, then what can I change?  
what do I crave?  
Someone to stop and really gaze  
into my eyes like a microscope  
magnetizing and prospecting  
how big the empty is  
and if they are the right size to fit.  
So what is empty?  
Is it a slit in the wall of your heart and mind  
or is it a person who you cherish,  
but still have yet to find.