my testimony

when i was born i never got along with my mom or dad but mostly my dad b/c he used to beat me day n nite.
he broke my fingers,ribs,nose,jaw in 2places...
MY MOM NEVER PROTECT ME.SHE WAS SCARE OF HIM.
he beat me when he was drunk or not drunk.
one night when i was in my crib and i was 6months old my parents was fighting.
and my dad gun went off n shot me in da skull i thought i died but god saved me n i had brain surgery to remove the bullet.
and now i have a problem with my head but i act like a kid sumtymes its not my fault dat i act like a kid that bullet messup my head as a child.
when i was 6yrs old my babysitter was a 17yr old boy and he stole my smile n childhood b/c he rape me 3tymes and told me not tell my mom n dad or he'll kill them.
my mom burn my lower back with an hott iron idk y b/c i knock da iron down n burn the rug...
i still got da burn mark on my back....
i didnt tell my mom about me being rape until i was 18 n having nitemares....
i was born with clubfoot n a bad heart....
i had open heart surgerys and i was in a coma 8months ago from 3strokes i was in a coma for 8months i didnt died b/c my dad gaveup his heart to saved my life.
and he had a doner to saved his life.....
when i was 11yrs old i join the latinking n folk gang.
and my mom kick me out da house b/c i was to trouble to handle at the age 11 so i was living with a pimp who rape n sold me to his male cilents who also rape me,
....started to have sex at da age of 12 n smoke at the age 11 n drink at 9yrs old.
i went to juvi for throwing a desk at my teacher b/c she told me to do my work n i was high dat day....
and i was rape in juvi by the guards.
i was stab last year by my so call bff he try to kill me b/c hes bi-polor n he forgot to take his meds n he try to finish me off but i kill him self defence...
and im on meds to help me sleep b/c i have nitemares and meds for helpin me sleep...
and when i was in da gangs i stole cars,money,fight,steal,sell drugs stealing cars,messin up my whole life until i hit 18 n quit gangs n start going to church and changing my life for God.
i quit smoking n drinking.
i used to try and commit suicide in my past b/c i just wanted to died.
thats my life confession this is my life you either hate or love me idc anymore now you all know the real me all i got to make me stay strong is my poetry.