Addictions

It started as a craving,
One unwavering,
To quench a hunger
And have it no longer.
“Just this once,
It will suffice.
Excitement for once
Won’t break life’s dice.”
He finally conceded
He thought he had succeeded
He never knew where he headed
A mental death road he treaded.
It was the beginning
Of things to come
Could it be undone?
It could have, before the beginning.
He was alone; lost to the world
With feelings of rejection.
“Lemme get some more
Of this and save myself from this depression.”
Just once didn’t suffice
He did it twice
And went on and on
Like the cycle of dusk and dawn.

He wasn’t himself  anymore
He lost his physical allure
His soul lost in damnation
His mind bound to eternal incarceration.
Salvation from himself he sought for
Freedom from his desires he longed for
His reputation was way below average
Something new he needed over him to have leverage.
His heart wanted a change
His mind preferred to remain the same
This was not what he bargained for
He got caught up in a tug of war.
Will it ever end?
Perhaps someday,
But not today.
It all depends…