nervous wreck

i'm supposed to be fearless
yet i'm always afraid
i cant speak up to anyone
because i am never responded
i feel as if i'm alone
because i am treated like it
all i get in life is betrayal
then a firm memory of why i'm alone
i get enraged to the point of no return
and i'm called a monster for being me
i can never say a word to anyone
because i feel my words slashing my throat
and the message sinks into my skin
how can i exist in a world that demands perfection
when all i can be is corruption