suicide season

They’re afraid  I’ll commit suicide
Little do they know I already died
Im dead on the inside
My heart is broken and in pieces
I have too many mental diseases
Please just let me go
I wont listen if you say no  
You never listed to me
I was giving you signs and you couldn’t see
I tried to scream
My eyes are full of tears and they gleam
Remember who was there when you cried
Remember who made you feel better when you wanted to die
This guy
You just used me
You just abused me
But im done
All I need is a gun
Im tired of all this pain
Maby ill able to hit my vain
Don’t say no
16 years and im ready to go
Im tired of loved ones dieing
Im tired of crying
I cant stand all the lying
Im ready for it all to end
This blade feels like  my only friend
People hate me for no reason
I heard its suicide season
And im going hunting
With each mental it im grunting
Im  done
I hope you have fun