A constant nightmear

I..I woke up today but I...but I didn't want to,
I woke with many fears and thoughts but now it's just a nightmear,
I am always in a nightmear with thoughts of suicide,
Cutting,
Over doasing,
She wants nothing more but the pain to end,
She's tired of having the same nightmear everyday and night,
A nightmear so scary she doesn't dare tell more than she wants to die because if she does tell you more...
You would think she's insane she must be I must be fucking insane,
This night near is insanity nothing more,
Just fear and insanity,
All she can hope now that she's home alone is that she won't do it,
As she screams with tears rolling down my face like rain during a storm,
Shaking like a leaf,
Trying to catch my breath,
Only in hopes I will either live or die today,
We won't know because my life is a constant nightmear this is the end of me,
I'm sorry,
Goodbye..forever