Snippets

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i.  
All she wanted was  
approval
acceptance
attention
affection
acknowledgement
to be
a part
instead
she's always
apart
 
ii.  
schism
of emotional masochism
amidst the other prisms
of individualism
 
iii.
how erotic
it is
to pick
apart
the ticking
mechanism
of your mind
 
iv.  
My heart
beaten
against a wall
poured out
and scrambled
at your feet
 
v.
i'm tired
of the
all consuming
all or nothing
do or die thing
 
vi.
I numb the pain
with fun
and soon  
become
also numb
to fun
 
vii.  
an angel on the outside
a devil at the wheel
tumultuous inside
torn apart by how I feel
 
viii.
I can't be
everything and everywhere
for everyone
and when I need
something
for me
I mostly get
none
 
ix.  
Ashes to ashes
dust to dust
it's all or nothing
and I'm never enough
 
x.  
I've been  
understanding
of your demanding
reaching grasping  
grabbing
but all you do
is bring me down
 
xi.  
my heart aching
mind racing
always contemplating
debating
on what it is
I should do
 
xii.
I have more  
affection
for my complexion
in a window
rather than a mirror
disconnected projections
minimize imperfections
...
or so it would appear
 
 
xiii.
I'm crashing down
from heights
too unstable to maintain
feeding a hunger
too voracious to sustain
ill-timed demise
of what I once  
thought wise
 
xiv.
I seek those  
with skeletons
of their own
but
find only those
who fear the  
rattle of bones
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