Fade in, fade out

This road seems desolate
The trees fly in the same direction
My mind resorts to opened doors
The wincing continues endlessly

The birds seem two steps ahead
The white walls are pail and dead
I see a thousands rats roaming
Narcissism fetishes tune the radio
They fade in, as I fade out
To a tune entirely different


Its each contemplation viewed as odd
A different view exhales its aspirations
Leaving a wounded sense of self-defeat
And an overcast of lingering doubt

I apologized long ago, since you ask
I have never transgressed doubt
I have only possessed it, you don't understand do you?
How suicide speaks clean through
How long it takes to go numb
When ever the infection begins
That's the real danger
As it fades in, I simply fade out.