Digging deeper for Me

long stares into the fading sun
within my mind
desperately shifting among dead leaves
on vague path in memories
buried beneath layers of pain
I look for me, the real me

I remember many yellow sunrises
and glorious hues of sunsets
were they real

I am lost in this darkness
the flame of my memory fading
living an existence of repeated breath
like a fixed crystal pirouetting ballerina

I am lost...a maze repeated
I am digging deeper to find me
lost somewhere
within life's charade
but I feel like I am drowning
I am lost.


*this poem was entered in a competition here. thank you for reading*