just when i think you care   you dont

 we tell each other things
show the ugly side to one another
just when i think we bonded
we dont

we reveal things
that have not seen the light of day
for such a long time now
confiding in each other
forming a bond of sorts
just when i think you care
you dont

i so want to love you
so want to need you
so wish i could be with you
i so hate myself for falling for you
just when i think i made the right choice
in revealing my inner most secrets
and giving you my all
i didnt

we cant help who we fall for
who we trust
who we just want to spend time with
who we miss every single day
who we shed so many tears over

but when reality bites
and you discover they dont feel the same
it hurts so much

i hate that i have a heart that needs loving