KILLING MYSELF

I have a fear of sleeping,
Closing my eyes to re-live every moment,
My mind shuts out reality,
No one can protect me of what I see,

I am bind by ropes,
His hands around my neck,
I can hear him breathing,
His presence is cold,

I try to cut myself free,
Screaming for someone to hear me,
No one seems to notice,
Maybe because there was no one who cared?

I wake up in tears,
My wrists cut,
A fear within myself,
All to be just bad memories,

He was gone,
I found that I was killing myself.