Unloved

Taking each day by day,
Taking every ounce of pain I'm given.
Practically driven to insanity as I'm finding myself curled up in a ball crying myself to sleep every night.
Have to fight myself to wake up,
" Do I really need to get up?" I ask myself.
Wounds don't heal,
They scar for life,
I don't feel them anymore because now I'm just numb.
I'm barely hanging on by a thread as everyone around me just laughs;
My misery is their entertainment,
My sadness creates their laughter,
I am their sideshow puppet.
I wipe the lonely tears away as I wish for a real friend,
For someone to feel the way that I feel,
To hold me when my body goes limp,
To make me smile while I frown,
And to get me through these tough times.
I drift away in la la land,
Hoping maybe it's better than reality.
Go ahead and ignore me,
Treat me like I never existed,
Maybe I'll just disappear all together.
I guess I am unloved.