How Many More Deaths?

Been in this cold ass world for to long.
How many more deaths do I have to face before it's my time to die?
I am so confused now, I thought you were supposed to be the good guys.
You tried to bring him back but you should of thought about the consequence before you shot.
I've been through this before,
I can't deal with it again.
I have nothing left in this world.
So might as well join them.
I guess now you can tell the local news I needed mental help too.
But it's always your word against ours.
No wonder they call you pigs.
Twisting the stories around making them sound like self defense.
Why'd you even pull out a gun if no one was armed?