Tonight Ends With Red

Some nights I'm fine.
There are days where I smile
and I sing for a while
because I really enjoy being alive.

There are some nights when I get lonely,
but those nights sometimes end just fine.
Then there are nights when I'm angry,
though those nights can end just the same in peace.

Then there are nights when I cry,
I curl up and in my head the thoughts scream at me,
"I just want to die!"
But those nights that's not really what I mean...

Right?

There are the nights when I suffer
under attack and burning fire
lies behind my eyes as my thoughts turn my heart to ice
and my sins call like a ghost from a dream long since past.

So, sure, there are some nights
when I will be just fine.
But tonight the madness will take me from the inside
and all I can do is struggle for air through the depths.

Tonight I know that I am bound to fall
and when I do sink to the cold ground and lie
still, my limbs will grow heavy like lead...
Tonight ends with red.