Today

Today starts with him on my mind
I finally drag my self out of bed
I go and take a long nice hot bath
Finally I get out and go change in some torn jeans and Cody's paint shirt
Today I feel like painting
I sit for a while in front of the canvas
It's blank
I don't know what to paint
It's only 3 am
I still sit there for a long time
I finally pick up some paint
Baby blue
I draw one line across the canvas
I work for a good 3 hrs on it
It's not done but I can't work anymore I am hungry and sore from work
I run down the stairs and go eat
I turn on the radio and sing all the songs that come on
I call my cusin Maci and ask if she can come chill today
She can't she is with her boyfriend.
So I run back up stairs and sit
I stare at the canvas
I can't do anymore right now
I go to the computer and decide to write
I'm blank I don't feel like writing because I can't get him of my mind
So I'm now laying in bed with my phone writing about my day and it's only 3pm I am ready to do something