pain

There a giant hand wrapped around my heart
Squeezing tightly taking all of my bloodline for hostage
I can't get through to them every move just stops me
Cuz with no blood flow ima vampire in light when
I try to meet them half way they just stand me up
My creator's feeling worst because they always
Go complain to her now she has a brain aneurysm
Mixed with cancer on blood pressure pills, stressed
Out because her family relies on her for the silliest shit,
I'm no different she baled me out prison each year.....
I try to do better but I'm like a crack fiend to police
They rely on my incarnation to get them paid for the week
They don't care about my problems rather I eat or I breathe,
So my creator has to suffer for that she tryna find another
Job cuz hee stuck up hag of a boss won't let her off  for
Her doctors appointments Fuck them for that,
I'm tryna stay posative but my lil cousin jumped out of a
Moving car and cracked his ribs they couldn't find him last
Night so I was up tryna find a way to shed light but I'm dim
Heart and mind I can't even cross a line with a pen these
Scars of mine and theirs are to much to bare and if my
Bloodline was out of the picture I wouldnt have a desire to
Live so where do I go from here