Betrayal

We were friends,      
Brought up in the same conditions,      
Walls with moss drizzled        
inside of a street prison,      
Gun shots were fired      
Bodies fell in the distance      
Sirens broke the silence      
The air was filled with tention,      
Outsiders didn't get this was life for us,      
We used to watch the grown up throw dice,      
And cuss, drink and then fight,      
Until dusk when the lights go out,      
We would knock on doors        
And take flight before they spotted us,      
Laughing and running because we liked the rush,        
curfew made it cooler,      
We knew if police got to us,        
We would be grounded plus we        
snuck outside, on that sunday night,      
The bus for school came at 7 and it was      
1 o clock,  some how we made it,      
The next day we were in the court yard playing,      
I asked were you afraid of dogs you said nah,      
So I gave my uncle's chow chow to you,      
and said she cool her names is black      
You ran and because of that she chased you,      
I took her back upstairs,  but when I came      
to tell you it was safe you were holding a rock      
In 2 hands and they were shaking,      
You came close and raised it then      
hit me over my head with it.      
       
To think bonds could be cracked so easily      
If they actually held matter it would be easy      
to do but that's because it didn't matter to...        
Who.      
       
You were my first love,      
I lived on the other end of the city,      
But I walked to your house to visit,      
Under your thumb and twisted around      
Your finger anything you wanted done,      
I did it. I didn't want to tell her no      
Even if I felt that it was killing me inside,      
to do things that contradicted my morals      
I folded for her, she changed my clothes      
The way that I looked, she couldn't change        
My attitude and it bothered her, I wore      
My heart on my face and my distaste for      
Her fantasy boy wouldn't let me smile at her      
Of course I forced it I was a tool doing      
Anything the repair woman wanted to do,      
One day she made a bet that I couldn't turn      
Her on so I did like a light switch her parents      
Wasn't home so she invited me into her room,      
We kissed and she begged me to get inside of      
Her woumb I got one top of her pressing        
My rock on to her soaked cat, lust consumed      
I unbundled my loops unzipped her pants,      
I looked into her eyes and remember her fantasy      
Of having a first time we were married,      
On a honey moon some where in Rome      
On a boat, a promise I wanted to keep the most      
So I fought for control buckled up my belt      
And said I won't this isn't what you want your      
Just pumped up on estrogen, she ran out of the        
Room and went into the bathroom with out saying anything, I herd her on the phone sobbing      
Calling herself a whore, I knocked and said nah      
That's not true you only want me because you're      
Dating me it's natural she screamed get away from me I sat in the garage waiting patiently,      
Only to hear her come out of the bathroom yelling and screaming  
So did you plan on raping me.        
       
To think bonds could be cracked so easily,      
If it actually held matter it wouldnt be easy to do      
And that's because it didn't matter to who...      
       
We were brothers not that we shared the same      
Father or mother be we shared the same interest,      
Inspired as writers to rhyme in rhythms to kill      
Time victims of mind manipulation,      
The radio station inflicted, you were foreign      
Some one was trying to fight you because      
His girlfriend liked you I interviened like        
You want to fight somebody send a lick to me      
You can't be pissed because she's into him,      
I'm pissed to, he backed off and it started a friendship      
Between to races that wasn't so different,      
Both brown skin with strict rules we didnt listen to      
So we would go to parties make mixtapes      
We eventually made a group we thought      
We couldn't make mistakes best of our kind      
Destined to rhyme defined by our moments        
In time,      
One day he made a friend that I thought would be      
A friend to me they banded together and started low      
Key Dissing me, no action followed so I replied in      
Mystery, mostly in the form a playful similes,      
Later he made an enemy of another group      
He asked me to cover him so I did,      
And it got out of hand,        
It started out as songs then sparked into fire arms,      
We calmed it down because family were their friends,      
Later that year I was invited to a club to see another      
Group performance from the partners I trusted,      
In the car they got me high and drunk, just to      
Walk me into an ambush on camera.    
       
To think bonds could be cracked so easily,      
If they were formed in actual matter it wouldn't      
Be easy to do but that's because it didn't matter      
To who...      
   
Now in order to earn my trust there has to be a test.