A PRAYER

Nothing will ever be okay
I'll never live a happy day
Just tell me why I have no hope
Just say something and I'll drop this rope
When I was little I made a wish
To die as a human, as a flower to bliss
I regret wishing never to grow old
I regret not doing as I was told
I've been upgrading a useless talent
I wish I had been a better parent
It's such a pity, it's such a waste
My tears have a disqusting taste
I feel I'm useless, I feel I'm damned
I'm stuck in a self made fucking trap
Who is responsible for my distraction?
My own self and my lack of reaction
But now I'm crying out for help
I think I've paid my fuckin' dept
I pray to the father of each creation
to You, who give me inspiration
How can you do that without being sorry
For this ink is a waste, this is my worry
I know my choices were wrong
I tried to confess them in a song
And as my wasted chances gather
I just wish I had another
I pray for a requviem to my past
I need some help, I need it fast
At least make my life lust
You know you have my faith and trust
If I live don't keep me suffer
give me a smile, bestow a laughter
But if I die, please steal my fear
and send an angel somewher near
to see at last how do they appear
to wipe from my eyes every last tear
I beg You father who painted the skies
forgive my stealings and my essential lies
I know my words may not be heard
Turn them to prayers for angels of death



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