Just a bunch of wonder and worry

What if I felt secure in the decisions I made?
What if I enjoyed working a nine to five and didn't yearn for freedom?
What if my father never left when I was a child?
What if my parents didn't get the divorce?
What if my nana didn't pass away?
What if my titi was still alive?
What if my moms boyfriend showed up earlier in my life?
What if Bruce never stopped loving me?
What if Brennan didn't just want me for sex?
What if my asthma finally got the best of me when I took that bong rip?
What if I crashed the car while being anything but sober?
What if I acted on my thoughts?
What if I didn't stop talking to my old best friends?
What if I could actually complete college?

What if I was actually happy with my life?