deepundergroundpoetry.com
W h e r e. D o. I. B e l o n g . . . ?
I feel so stressed out, I'm crying on my bed thinking about all the shit thats piled up on me.. My school work, my family.. I don't know what to do and the anxiety isn't helping at all.. I want this year to end smoothly but how can i when im always so stressed..! I look like a fucken mess right now.. I yell at those around me and i feel like a bitch doing so.. My family cant put themselves in my shoes and only tell me "i did my best" but its just not good enough.. Not good enough for my family to be proud of me.. I only cause them trouble.. Imagine if i drop out? I would only be a burden.. I'd rather be dead than cause my family pain of me being nothing but a nuisance.. I only cause trouble wherever i go.. So.. Where do i belong in this cold, heartless and pitiful world..? I will never make the ones i love happy...or proud of me...what am i supposed to do..?
Published 22nd May 2015
All writing remains the property of the author. Don't use it for any purpose without their permission.
likes 2
reading list entries 0
comments 2
reads 829
Commenting Preference:
The author is looking for friendly feedback.
22nd May 2015 10:34am
Just be yourself, be happy with who you are. Don't be concerned with making others proud of you. Dispose of pride, it is a deadly sin for a reason...
"Pride Is One Seed"
One seed is masked in infancy
With its intoxicating allure
Its sexy remedy
Impersonating ones esteem
Inseminating the mind with arrogance
An artificial substitute for confidence
Yet this sweetener is no equal
Stroking the ego
Through external heights that excite
Leading to a bitterness deep within
Fueling a growing resentment
For all that is physically different
Forgetting that at the core we are One
We are the same
Letting go of who you are not
Is the key to setting us all free
As part of you is a part of me and we
And in One we are all together
Our commonality is the seed of our equality
You are my equal and I am sorry
While the shame I carry for four hundred years of hate
Cannot be let go of by one alone
It must instead be released by One together
(* 04/04/1997)
JJ Johnson
"Pride Is One Seed"
One seed is masked in infancy
With its intoxicating allure
Its sexy remedy
Impersonating ones esteem
Inseminating the mind with arrogance
An artificial substitute for confidence
Yet this sweetener is no equal
Stroking the ego
Through external heights that excite
Leading to a bitterness deep within
Fueling a growing resentment
For all that is physically different
Forgetting that at the core we are One
We are the same
Letting go of who you are not
Is the key to setting us all free
As part of you is a part of me and we
And in One we are all together
Our commonality is the seed of our equality
You are my equal and I am sorry
While the shame I carry for four hundred years of hate
Cannot be let go of by one alone
It must instead be released by One together
(* 04/04/1997)
JJ Johnson
Anonymous
22nd May 2015 9:23pm
I feel your pain here. I think one of the things we do wrong is driving ourselves crazy trying figure out how to get rid of all the stress and anxiety at once. It's not possible. I've discovered the best thing to do is solve the problems one at a time starting with the issue that weighs on you the heaviest. Some people can't understand it and it makes me wonder how the hell they live stress free, no sorrow, no remorse, no feelings of inadequacy or failure... But then I realize that those people don't have the strength we have to endure these sources of misery and STILL continue living.
