That Other Drunk Night

That other drunk night
Ruined my life
Or so I thought
Till now

That other drunk night
Made my heart act up
Causing me to do things
I wouldn't otherwise do

That other drunk night
Made tears fall from my eyes
Forced my core open wide
Till I revealed truth and secrets

Every flaw exposed
Depression at the forefront
Inadequacy felt
Because I just wanted to be perfect

That other drunk night
I was ready to make a sacrifice
My happiness for yours
But you put up a fight

You proposed me trying as the sacrificial act
Challenged by asking what if that was all you wanted
I didn't know what to do or say
When you used my words against me like that

And on that drunk night
I kept on fighting you hard
Infinite loops of why you should just stay away
But you stuck around and fought regardless

Of that drunk night
I have absolutely no memory
And I'd have never known what happened
If you'd have left and never returned

But after that drunk night, I found you
You were there for me in the morning
And you recounted the night for me
Then stayed with me till I was okay

I knew events were more than plausible
Because everything fit so well
And though I was scared that I blacked out
In that moment I knew I could trust you

You kept my revelations safe
You didn't exploit or hurt me
And you were honest with me through it all
I don't know how to repay such kindness

Because on that drunk night
You didn't let me fall
And I'll never know quite how to thank you
For all that you did for me then

At last I'm feeling sober
But there's a chance I'm drunk on gratitude
I guess that's what happens
When strong hands leave you deeply touched

I used to hate that drunk night
For all that it exposed
And all the things you know
But now I see it's not so bad

I used to think it changed us
But finally I realize that leaps won't hurt
Because the road we've been paving has always been there
I just jumped across without looking both ways first

Was it a massive risk? Yes
Stupid and irresponsible? Of course
That's why it was truly hard to imagine
That I'd ever recover from that drunk night

But I did, and I couldn't have done it without you
I'm incredibly lucky that you were a safe place to go to
And I'm so glad that neither of us has been running
And that it hasn't interfered with us traveling at a comfortable pace

From this point on I plan to move exclusively natural
So I will be careful with alcohol from now on
But I can't deny the levels its helped us find
And how they leave my head spinning still