Dreaming of Sleep

I want to disappear
behind the curve of the moon
I want to float away,
escaping from the scene,
no longer worrying
or torn apart with anxiety.
I want to be at ease,
sleeping in peace
under the sea,
ears full of silence
as I scream
frozen pain
into the shadows
of my brain,
choking tears
of broken fears
holding me
like chains.
I want it to all go away.
I'm just a fallen angel,
heart wide open
from the landing,
eyes bleeding
from the seeing
of the past circling closer
over and over again

hopefully this time
it's just all in my mind...

I need to breathe
and believe
in warm, happy things
and pray I just sleep
and not dream.