Discipline

Its agonizing
its pain
its some strange pleasure
to deny yourself
to starve and lust and desire
sometimes it feels like your gonna die
to deny your want
to deny that which is not good for you
and afterward
you feel like you can do anything
there is freedom real freedom
not to be tied down by what you want
you can always go back
but its so hard to get out
there is strength in restraint
strength in pain
something not one can take from you
something beyond the material
something beautiful
about suffering and pain
I never knew I could love my pain
through it I am something
through it I am more perfect
through it I can live
through it am I free
through pain I gain discipline