Regretable carvings (not to be read by anyone who knows the name behind Deathnotewhovian)

My options
Do I need to tell someone?
Or
Do I want to tell someone?

Definitions from society and peers:
Need = Desperation & Attention seeking
Want = Need & Attention seeking...

Surly I'm not the only one noticing a pattern...

Telling someone about the stupid 'marks' I inflicted won't make the ugly picture I carved go away.

Telling someone can't make me feel better, right?

So why do I want to reach out - I'm such a fucking idiot it shows.
Regret and other emotions have suddenly arose.

Conversing with mother,
So broken am I
Lost in the moment,
I let myself cry.

For the cuts will leave scars
But only the deepest.
I'll let them heal
To remind me of my weakest...

... Moments of life
The curiosity I fed
Self harm is no guys
You end up empty and red.