One of those nights

Tonight's one of those nights
The nights where I can't bare to me or here or alive
I am alone
One of the worst things I can be tonight
I have no one to talk to
I am afraid
I miss my old ways to deal
An addiction I quite can't get over
I am losing that battle inch by inch
I will lose and go back
I am not as strong as I wished
I just want someone to help me
God help me.