Suicide Note

For all those times none of you came when I needed you
I bet you'll come one last time I no longer need you
To view my sleeping corpse arms crossed and still
regretting the things you never said and now will ever again

I could not reach you through my sorrow and suffering
and your arms never quite reached out far enough
to help me to shore in the cold waters drowning me
or icy fingers touching and pulling me ever down

My life was a vomit of responsibility and expectation
but who has the right to dictate those terms?
My lifepath altered by one sworn to be forever by
Selfishness necessitating my forever vigilance

I'm sure some of you are not shocked: I gave enough warnings
but who has time to interpret and heed the calls of the damned?
My friends are numbered few but I curse all the rest
for my friends now suffer my inability to tolerate the heartless

I'm sorry for the mess
I wanted to pour my heart out one last time
It seems I have succeeded

[Entered in Challenge : Suicide Note 2/17/15]