burnt

Burnt my bridges
Before time allowed
Swallowed whole the flames
Believing it would put them out

Set it aside
Waiting it out
No body is left
They all got the Fuck out

They suffered too long
Under my thumb
Expected me to love
While I was numb

Here it is
The ashes of life's gifts
Tortured by my shit
Left for the wind

If only time would relapse
Let me give back
The lives I took
Captured in my heartless books

Believing in a lie
I set a flame the sky
Trying to kill the sun
Just so I could run
Free as a bird
At one with the night
Forgetting the look
In those perfect loving eyes

I couldn't look back
Not for any one at all
They would only take me off track
Of my vendetta to kill it all

Turn off all the lights
I want to watch the night
Sky's so inviting
Unleashing the dormant mind

I forgot my heart
Left it amongst the stars

No one was meant to get burned
I didn't know it was a curse
All I wanted was to see those faces
Smiling with all graces

Projection got the best of me
Kept relaying my self hatred
Never accepting my existence

I Forgot who shot the sun
Jesus Christ wasn't wrong
He meant for love to overcome all

Alas it wasn't for me
Not until I could Set myself free
No one else could do this task
Only I could end the past

So here I stand before it all
Torch in hand
Seeing my flaws

Here I am
A broken lamb
Stoning the crow
To watch myself fall

I never meant to cause pain
Burning inside my acid rain
Projecting self infliction
In denial of its existence

I've fallen past ascension
Can't go through resurrection
I'm not a savior
I'm a lesson
The devil's story forever relentless

How can I show affection
When I just want to kill the infection
The life thriving inside my walls
The source of it all

Learning its okay to fall
I'm starting to break down the wall

Its the start of a life
My life