Beauty is on the inside

They think they know me.
Like they know what's going on...
haha silly people.
You can read all day
looking for the answers
in the words.

I want to be free
of these feelings.
I can be distracted
With small green trees
or hard flavored liquid
It wont change me.

"I love you"
how many girls
have heard that from you before?
It changes when I do.
"fuck you slut"
New person. Same lies.

Holidays with family
echoes of parents screaming
brother is out wasting away
uncle is in that place for "help"
cousin reeks of the girl he cheats with
But we all sit around the table
smiling...faking...for each other.
I guess it just runs in the family. Genetics.

like a flower
I am wilting away, slowly
they see the picture of me before
how did she get that way?
from breathing the air around her.

I want to escape this horrible reality
it never will get better
they just say that to keep you going
not one person understands.
Who are we?
Just a speck of dust
in this galaxy.