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Unfaithful (Thursday, 11 December 2014)
truth, injurious
to my mind, is that i have
been unfaithful to
the same woman for eighteen
years, some times marrying them
.
not desireous
of children she wants someone
to care for her only
ne'er having had childhood of
her own, her moms caretaker
.
saying she did not hate me
but could not restart friendship
.
she asked why i did not come
to the wake for her mother
.
saying i could not
take seeing her for the first
time nigh on ten years
that i could not hurt my wife
any more than asking had
.
she stopped stalking me
blocked from stalking her twitter
how many more years
is it kindness or cruelty
rejecting my devotion
.
i have betrayed my
lady of red-raven hair
the name behind my
daughters in nightly mantra
how much longer can i live
.
what a drag it is to not
truly "love the one you're with"
to my mind, is that i have
been unfaithful to
the same woman for eighteen
years, some times marrying them
.
not desireous
of children she wants someone
to care for her only
ne'er having had childhood of
her own, her moms caretaker
.
saying she did not hate me
but could not restart friendship
.
she asked why i did not come
to the wake for her mother
.
saying i could not
take seeing her for the first
time nigh on ten years
that i could not hurt my wife
any more than asking had
.
she stopped stalking me
blocked from stalking her twitter
how many more years
is it kindness or cruelty
rejecting my devotion
.
i have betrayed my
lady of red-raven hair
the name behind my
daughters in nightly mantra
how much longer can i live
.
what a drag it is to not
truly "love the one you're with"
Published 24th Dec 2014
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24th Dec 2014 12:16pm
Sometimes its hard to love the same person for years. I think the trick is just reinventing the relationship. If you get what I mean... thanks for share :-)
24th Dec 2014 1:39pm
My issue is the exact opposite.
I have loved the same woman since some time in late 1996.
The timing has always been wrong.
We have married other people multiple times
I am married now and so is she...
But it is so hard sometimes to remember who it is I am supposed to be loyal to...
Is communicating with her so bad if it is the price of my sanity.?
Also see "Standing Order For An Imaginary friend."
I have loved the same woman since some time in late 1996.
The timing has always been wrong.
We have married other people multiple times
I am married now and so is she...
But it is so hard sometimes to remember who it is I am supposed to be loyal to...
Is communicating with her so bad if it is the price of my sanity.?
Also see "Standing Order For An Imaginary friend."
24th Dec 2014 5:53pm
I’m sure your sanity wouldn’t be the only thing you would lose. Love is a tricky and sometimes heartless thing when you love more than one person. Even if you love the other girl more it is impossible to just up and leave your life and have her do the same... Sometimes drinking helps? lol
24th Dec 2014 6:54pm
Well doesn't help that I see the optimal solution as being a four person (or more) family with two (or more) houses....
And alcohol hasn't helped so far...
And alcohol hasn't helped so far...
24th Dec 2014 8:00pm
Yeah, i know what you mean. Forever a piece of your heart that's missing. Hope it works out in the end.
24th Dec 2014 8:22pm
Some times I wonder if I can take 31 years of this...
Other time the answer is "Fuck No"
Worst part is not being able (internally) to ask If she or they would be willing
It would be appropriately ironic of I got free and she didn't care.
Schroedenger's Poly Fool.
Other time the answer is "Fuck No"
Worst part is not being able (internally) to ask If she or they would be willing
It would be appropriately ironic of I got free and she didn't care.
Schroedenger's Poly Fool.
24th Dec 2014 8:29pm
I wonder how much longer I can hold on...
How much longer they would leave my cousins daughter (first cousin once removed)/Daughter in my hands if I turn out as batshit as my cousin is...
How much longer they would leave my cousins daughter (first cousin once removed)/Daughter in my hands if I turn out as batshit as my cousin is...
24th Dec 2014 11:11pm
To think that you will leave and everything would work out just fine… well that won’t happen. A lot of times relationships don’t work out and to leave something that works for something that might not work is risky to say the least.
Ever since I asked my wife to take me to the memorial for Raven's Mother in the house that she recently moved to,
that she gave me the address to months agone
ever since the asking, and not going,
I feel a deep sadness in my wife fair akin to match mine own
Telling both of them that the reason I did not go is that I needed my wife to keep me away from raven because I did not trust me self control was perhaps more honesty than either could take.
that she gave me the address to months agone
ever since the asking, and not going,
I feel a deep sadness in my wife fair akin to match mine own
Telling both of them that the reason I did not go is that I needed my wife to keep me away from raven because I did not trust me self control was perhaps more honesty than either could take.
11th Aug 2015 6:55pm
"not desireous
of children she wants someone
to care for her only
ne'er having had childhood of
her own, her moms caretaker "
This stanza feels like it was written about me.
of children she wants someone
to care for her only
ne'er having had childhood of
her own, her moms caretaker "
This stanza feels like it was written about me.
29th Aug 2015 2:21pm
This piece has a gravity to it that had me grunting like the old deacons in my grandfather's church whenever he hit a powerful point in his day's sermon ...
I like the candor of your words too, there's something here for everyone and anyone
Bravo!
I like the candor of your words too, there's something here for everyone and anyone
Bravo!
