Drowned by life

In life,
Everything is connected to something greater
An apple to a tree,
A petal to a flower,
minutes to the hour,
and even you to me

But over time
Some things lose their connections
What's a house without a family?
What's a body without ambition and emotions?

You see,
I lack my greater connection
For, most days I feel empty and alone
As if I am walking along without a head

As I lay in my bed,
I look up at the clock and realize days have passed by
Oh' time why do you play this game with me?
Why do I always feel like I am chasing you but never can keep up?
Like I am stuck in the rough and can't get enough

Funny how someone can have everything
and another can have not a damn thing

As I awake from my deep and long sleep
I am even more scared of reality then I am my dreams

Sometimes I feel as if I am drowning
not accidental,
but Forcefully
I feel someone pushing me under harder and harder
They play games with me
when I come up for air they push me right back under
My lungs are filling up with water and it is getting harder to breathe
my motivation to keep holding on is slowly fading
and life is becoming more and more degrading

If I am to wake up tomorrow
what will life have in store for me next?