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Novacane / jUST WRITING
Numb ..... Pain ..... No Trust
I'm so cold hearted to love ... I Don't want to care anymore I don't want to feel anymore I don't want to LOVE Anymore .
Why can't I care it feels like my heart has token a entire bottle of Novacane and it's officially numb .
I don't even remember what love feels like my body is immune to pain .
Why can't I cry even though i'm hurting ... My heart can't feel it even though it's supposed to I know I should be crying from something this bad but I can't
I Broke 3hearts Last week and I didn't even care .. I Wasn't myself ... I Was being evil I was being the guy's that hurt me to them .
My father was never in my life .. I use to run to what I thought was love looking for a man figure in my life .. Now i'm running from that to .
Who will I run to now... who can I share these feelings with as i'm writing this I want to cry but my heart won't let me it's so numb to these type of things that it has Become a norm to feel pain and hurt and alone .
Maybe this is the way life is supposed to be . Maybe i'm the odd girl out . Maybe this the way life was planned out for me .
I know i'm beautiful but I never heard it from the people that means the most to me .
I use to get teased all my life , my own sister told me not to talk to her while where at school .
I had no one . So I changed up my look loss weight and became the QUOTE ON QUOTE "Bad Bitch" That everybody wanted .
now i'm this cold hearted asshole that doesn't have 1 fuck to give .... I Want to care sometimes but I can't Nobody cared for me ... NEVER . So why care for anyone else .
I'm so cold hearted to love ... I Don't want to care anymore I don't want to feel anymore I don't want to LOVE Anymore .
Why can't I care it feels like my heart has token a entire bottle of Novacane and it's officially numb .
I don't even remember what love feels like my body is immune to pain .
Why can't I cry even though i'm hurting ... My heart can't feel it even though it's supposed to I know I should be crying from something this bad but I can't
I Broke 3hearts Last week and I didn't even care .. I Wasn't myself ... I Was being evil I was being the guy's that hurt me to them .
My father was never in my life .. I use to run to what I thought was love looking for a man figure in my life .. Now i'm running from that to .
Who will I run to now... who can I share these feelings with as i'm writing this I want to cry but my heart won't let me it's so numb to these type of things that it has Become a norm to feel pain and hurt and alone .
Maybe this is the way life is supposed to be . Maybe i'm the odd girl out . Maybe this the way life was planned out for me .
I know i'm beautiful but I never heard it from the people that means the most to me .
I use to get teased all my life , my own sister told me not to talk to her while where at school .
I had no one . So I changed up my look loss weight and became the QUOTE ON QUOTE "Bad Bitch" That everybody wanted .
now i'm this cold hearted asshole that doesn't have 1 fuck to give .... I Want to care sometimes but I can't Nobody cared for me ... NEVER . So why care for anyone else .
Published 15th Dec 2014
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- Edited 15th Dec 2014 9:37pm
15th Dec 2014 9:18pm
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15th Dec 2014 10:03pm
20th Dec 2014 8:54am
This one I can relate to Soul;somehow on the path of love,we stumble on crooked ways but I've also discovered that our experiences in the search for something as precious as LOVE are not pre-designed neither are they meant to break us. Rather I think they are meant to strengthen us and to help us differentiate easily between who's fake and who's real. Warm your heart up Soul,you're a lovely chick,beautiful; and I don't think you need anyone to remind you of that but I do think you need someone to share your deepest feelings with and I know you'll find one who deserves it. Beautiful true words too...I enjoyed it.
