Beyond Recall

Happy days are gone,
Leaving no trace behind;
Now the nights are long,
Like someone stopped the time.

Beyond recall;
Gone beyond recall,
The anger brewing inside
Is taking away my all.

I struggle in vain with thoughts,
Trying to refresh memories,
Of when things were still the same,
When I was proud of being me.

Now they are gone,
Leaving behind this empty soul,
Battling with every single breath,
Fighting to take control.

But never can I do in peace,
That which my heart desires,
All I know is endless storm,
And endless journey through the fire.

As I walk in partial blindness,
Not knowing what's waiting ahead,
A feeling of despair takes over,
Sending deadly blows to my head.

I'd dreamed of easygoing adventures,
Through life in peace and comfort;
But reality has snatched that away,
Leaving me with what I never bargained for.

I hate living,
I can't conform to life,
It's too much to contemplate,
A way out of this strife.