June 4th

298 Days.
The amount of time it takes to break my heart.
The amount of time it took for me to learn how to love just to watch my teacher and object of affection walk out the door.
7,152 hours,
We counted down the hours until the supposed end of the world
Waiting in anticipation for our lives to go out with a bang
Ten thousand times bigger than the one we came in with
Seconds ticked by to midnight and when our ears remained silent our voices raised nothing but screams at our joy at the chance to live again.
429,120 minutes
Until that big metal bird would pick you up in its selfish beak
Carrying you oceans away to feed its ever-begging children.
In those last minutes the last thing you wanted was a large dairy queen blizzard.
I prayed for a real blizzard,
Large enough to keep the bird from coming to get you,
Large enough to freeze your feet to our ground
Long enough that I could blink the tears away from my eyes.

One Week.
1,512,000 seconds
25,200 minutes,
420 hours,
7 Days,
2 broken hearts
Oceans apart,
Not reachable by foot or car,
Desperately wanting to wrap you in my arms,
For you to tell me that it wasn’t as cold as it seemed and that I would awaken from even the darkest dreams.
2 months
It’s been two months but I still drive for miles
Weeping into the vast and empty air that used to be so full of you,
All you,
Wishing I could drown away your vacancy with my tears.

25,747,200 seconds,
I would give anything to hear you scream “ONE SECOND!!!” one more time.
25,747,200 moments with you is not nearly enough time to make me want to spend a single second away from
You are the reason I know the cosine of 2 pi over 3
You are the reason I do not think of the color pink with scorn.
You are the reason I no longer second-guessed that my life was something worth living.

Time is not the ticking of a clock
Or the displacement of his hands
It is not a 30-day cycle
Or the coming of the moon each night.
Relativity of time makes telling it entirely up to me
And I told it to stay away but it came
It came every night in the spaces between your breaths
It came every day we skipped school in a giddy fit of rebellion
You were my unit of measurement
Every year, every month, every day
Every hug, every movie, every road trip
Every hour, every minute, every second
Every dance, every piano song, every midnight snack


You saw the miraculous way the sun repeatedly appeared over that horizon,
And the sound the snow made when it fell.
The day before you won second place at the city track meet you told me not to come
You said I wouldn’t enjoy it.
Well little did you know, I stood there the whole time
Behind the chain link fence whispering Adam Levine lyrics
In your direction.
14.7 Seconds
It wasn’t until you came home with that
Second place trophy
We danced to the music of your feet leaping hurdles
It was all I could do to not write the words across the sky
“You are timeless, you are timeless, you are timeless.”