a kiss goodnight

we've shared everything with each other;      
been as intimate as two people        
intensely in love can be        
from across thousands of miles...      
     
your limits go far beyond most women      
beyond most men      
I found I could have my way with you                  
almost anything I wanted...                
                      
I've come to realize fantasies                                
I would never have known                                
had we not fallen in love                   
the rabid lust                   
the arrant debauchery...                                
                                   
but when I'm alone              
wrapped in unfulfilled sheets              
when I strip wolfish thoughts              
and feelings bare              
to the core of my heart...                           
                                
all I ever wanted        
all I've ever really needed                   
was to kiss you goodnight...