first kiss

the truth will set me free, so let me be honest with myself,
i never loved you
"I love you" were just 8 empty characters that symbolized our relationship in a text message
which explains why your ears never once rang at the sound of my voice expressing such a lie
i thought of you a lot though,
the way your lips felt on my virgin lips were unlike anything i've ever felt before
across the hall from the exit left of the health room you gave me a memory
a memory i used on several occasions as an excuse to keep letting you break my  heart and attempt to clean up the mess you've made of me
i know... i know you didnt really love me too,
love shouldn't feel like that
shouldnt feel like im trapped in a room being mocked by 4 walls striving for your touch,  your love
screaming for you..
but you're on the other side. with the key.