In the Wilderness

Smokes rising up
the sun will soon follow
I didn't mean to stay
I feel too hollow
to give you anything
or be anything to you
I know I don't know you
I don't think I want to
You don't understand
You say that you could
but  even if you did
would  it do any good?
I don't know what to say
I used to be good at this
till I got lost
so lost in the wilderness

I made a mess
I made a mess out of nothing.
I climbed in bed
I climbed in bed and got lost in it.
I'm on the run
I'm on the run in the same place.
I've got a gun
I've got a gun where my mouth should be
when I go off do you hear me?

My shirts on the floor
yours  is on me
I look to the door
can I slip out quietly?
There's something about
waking up the next day
the sunlight brings distance
and chases me away
Is it just alcohol
that makes me brave?
Will I ever be the girl
The girl who wants to stay?
People exhaust me
the alternatives lonely
and at this point
I don't know who the hell I want to be.

I made a mess
I made a mess out of nothing.
I climbed in bed
I climbed in bed and got lost in it.
I'm on the run
I'm on the run in the same place.
I've got a gun
I've got a gun where my mouth should be
when I go off do you hear me?

Driving myself home
65 on the highway
singing  along to the radio
till I pull in my driveway.
I walk inside
I go into my room
everything's  so quiet
I don't know what I was running home to.

I made a mess
I made a mess out of nothing.
I climbed in bed
I climbed in bed and got lost in it.
I'm on the run
I'm on the run in the same place.
I've got a gun
I've got a gun where my mouth should be
when I go off do you hear me?

I don't know what to say
I used to be good at this
till I got lost
so lost in the wilderness