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All my life I've been waiting to be free of my chains.
The pages of my existence are encrusted with misery and pains.

I've been living an endless nightmare without meaning.
I didn't feel safe when their words became demeaning.

I was left with a broken spirit and empty in despair.
I wanted so desperately to breath but couldn't find air.

I tired to run but it was impossible back then.
I was too fragile and thought I could never try again.

The tangled web of emotions is missing from my pages.
I am twisted up inside many different cages.

Violent squalls are swirling around me as my pages turn.
I'm caught in a raging storm as big waves churn.

The tangled web is filled with pain that I will never forget.
My trapped soul hasn't been released from past chapters as yet.

I learnt to use disguises, many masks have I.
But who am I without a mask...I cry.

It is so painful to speak my pages even while you hold my hand.
Each new chapter cuts like a knife...how much more can I withstand.

Do you know how it feels not to be able to live a life?
To simply exist is not enough for me and I get the urge to use a sharp, sharp knife.

I know what to do to set myself free of chains.
But the impetus is not within me and quickly my energy drains.

Do you know how it feels to be so profoundly disheartened?
When the weight of all my yesterdays pulls me down and my soul darkens.

Do you know how it feels to live only for others?
All I want is an endless sleep and forget my brothers.

You say I must think of myself first before others.
But if I did that, grieving would be my Godmothers.

So many say to me, "I love you," "I love your hugs."
But where are they when I'm falling and want to take all my drugs.

Real love can't find me in my darkness to help me carry the weight.
I can't make it alone so what will become my fate?

I need a friend...to see me to the end.

Otherwise, who's going to find me?
Who will understand me?

When I no longer can speak a word!