if you met me

if you met me
youd see a sweet boy
a caring boy
a confident boy.
the kind you wouldnt be ashamed to take home to mother.
who wouldn't be in danger of your fathers anger.

if you knew me
youd  know an insecure boy
a loyal boy
a lonely boy
the kind that wouldnt tell you hes sad just so you could be happy
the kind that would never leave

if you really knew me though
youd have seen my scars
youd have seen my tears
youd have seen all my fears
youd know im just a sad lonely boy
who doesnt know how to deal with anything but a knife
whos terrified of being left alone
being forgotten
being abandoned.
who refuses to cry in public.
who just wants everyone to be happy and accepting.

if you met me
youd see a smart boy
a happy boy
and you couldn't be more wrong.