Ella

1. You can see me falling  
but you don’t pick me up anymore  
not like when we used to be friends  
 
Let’s not mention the times  
we blurred the lines  
they’re for a different photo album  
 
We aren’t and never were  
anything worth giving a name to  
 
2. I’m tired of the two year stories  
still circulating out of your mouth  
like they’re new and interesting  
 
You’re less fascinating  
than you think you are  
and I’m almost ashamed to say  
I’m still using you as a muse  
 
3. You know me less  
than I let you believe  
you’ve never seen the best of me  
the worst of me, the middle of me    
I’m just a stranger you know the name of  
 
4. You tell me I'm too negative  
I’m not negative  
I’m just realistic  
if I can’t be friends with logic  
I’m as good as fucked anyway  
because hope doesn’t pay the bills  
while you brag about your awesome new cashed-up holiday  
and then tell me you feel bad  
when I say I haven’t had a break in longer  
than I can remember  
 
I’ll hear all about your vacay
whether I want to or not
 
5. I hate that I can’t escape you  
I would run a million miles  
just not to see your face again  
and the way it hurt when you let me down  
 
I still wear the scars of those days  
though I know you can’t see them  
 
6. Sometimes I forget  
there is always a way out  
 
I’m not here for the long haul  
when I say good bye  
when I say I’ll drop round sometime  
next time I’m in town  
I hope you know I’m lying  
 
© Indie Adams 2014