death note

My body's  cold and withered
And ive slithered off into space

I try to not be noticed
Thats why i hide my face

I try to not be seen
So i disguise my emotions with smile
I try to just pretend im happy
Even if last time i cut wasnt a while

A while a go or a mile away
The blades getting closer
But then there'll  be less pain

At least i think inside of my head
I tell you im happy
Yet my smile is dead

Im wearing a mask
And avoiding a flask
i dont wanna drink
I want this to last

I wanna see you
Wondering what happens next

But isnt it obvious with that note next to my neck?