Alone

Its hard to leave the darkness that is catching around you.
Im falling more and more into this awful pit called hell on earth.
Everyone knows what im doing and yet no one sees that im hurting.  
Im being destroyed.
Tore down.
Beaten.
And yet I have never felt more alive.
I guess getting ride of my soul was all it took.
Falling into this darkness I found a new home.
But never have I felt more alone.
They ask what happened to the good girl they knew.
But I can't answer because im frozen mute.
Maybe I need this.
It could help me.
Or maybe Destroy me forever.
If you ask I haven't sold my soul yet.
But I  this path of destruction it might happen.
And as they all know my uncle and gramps are preacher's.
And yet they cant see that the one they love is in trouble.
Dear self destruction when will you complete the operation.