Pain

My life is full of pain
I act like its not real
But the more an more its clear to me
This pain is real
And it cant be ignore
I cry myself to sleep
Hoping
One day
This pain will go away
You see sunshine and rainbows
I see dark clouds and rain
My life is in the dark
And I'm lost and afraid
What will I see
If the light shines through
I don't know
But I'm scared I'll see
A murderer
Standing in front of me
Maybe I'll stay in the dark
This way
If I'm Murdered
I won't know