My Book

I'm alone
Alone with my book
My book of things
My book of lies
My book of trust
My book of my disguise
The one thing that makes my insanity
Easy to hide

A book of every wish I make
that will never come true
I still write them down
Because that's what dreamers do
Pretend life is a fantasy
Though we know it's not true

A book of tears I never cried
Words hiding my own waterfall
Maybe because I'm too shy
To express my feelings
That I really want to show

My book of pain
But I still smile
To go back and remember
Then and now
So it won't be as bad
And I won't be as sad

My book of love that I never give
No matter how hard I dig
No matter how big
My heart really is
It still wants me to be alone
My book gave my love a home
So that's where it has grown

(Adding more little by little cx as I write in my book)