Why....Can't I

It seems like I can't stop drying these eyes
Because inside I'm silently crying
Dried up tears on my face, but my emotions keep hiding
Away from the weight of the world that is
Smiling while dying inside just to keep from breaking
Pain so heavy on the inside
My heart no longer knows how to keep faking
So instead my fist ball up and I go into survival mode
Praying to God that this type of rage won't hold
Feeling so much hate towards those who do me wrong
Break me down leave me standing alone
Just so they can sit back and laugh
And watch me fight my way back to sanity